Sunday, January 13, 2008

I'm baaa-aaack!

Okay, things have been crazy busy since I've lasted posted anything. Lets see, the holidays have come and go (which were amazing by the way)--Happy New Year! My sweetheart husband just left for OCS (Officer Candidacy School) in CT. He will be gone for 17 whole weeks! I'm only on week one and finding it extremely tough. I had to take him to the airport to send him off and it was a complete nightmare. I couldn't be happier for him and his accomplishments (it takes a whole lot to get where he is) BUT...I had no clue how much I need him in my everyday life. The evenings are the hardest, and at this point, boy do I miss having TV to watch! I go to bed, spray a little of his cologne on his empty pillow and try to find an ounce of comfort. I think about what he might be doing, and I know he has it much harder than me. Apparently, the first few weeks are like going through boot camp all over again. He's on a very strict schedule and cannot call me or write until he earns those privileges. I'm supposed to hear from him maybe next Sunday, but the time is allotted for 5 minutes at the most. This is going to be the hardest part for me. Sometimes you just want to hear their voice. I write down things to tell him, so that I don't forget when he calls. I write dumb things like: Romeo (our Yorkie)fell off the couch was funny, or I heard that country song International Harvester by Craig Morgan, and it cracked me up (jokingly, he always says it's "his song"), or that the book he has left for me to read is really great. Just anything...I so desperately want to talk to him.
I'll be okay though. I just have to stay busy and remind myself that in the end, this is all going to be the start of a whole new amazing beginning for us. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, I never thought my heart could grow any fonder...